Not really a cloud, but a nevus.
This past week I went to Santiago with my family for another scan of my eye and a visit with my ocular oncologist. My nevus is brown, 1.5 mm wide, 2.4 mm long and 0.6 mm thick. And the good news is that these measurements have not changed since my first scan six months ago. This means that my nevus is stable, and for now not showing any signs of melanoma.
My doctor wants to continue watching it, iris melanomas can grow very slowly, but for now it looks good.
I was surprised by how happy the news made me feel. I had been putting on a brave face, but secretly believed my nevus was growing. So to find it stable was great!
I know this is not over, I will have to live with looking in the mirror everyday and checking that it stays the same. And for now I can relax. But this has brought me into the world of rare cancers and stories of people who are not so lucky. Of how hard it is to cope mentally with a vague diagnosis, and how widely different cancers can be.
So I put this post out into the world for anyone who is dealing with the uncertainty of an iris nevus/melanoma, and hope that they know they are not alone.